I've always been needed, and I've always been there for people as much as I possibly could. But who is there for me? When will someone decide I'm worth helping? I am just so broken. I am so alone. I do not understand why I have to be alone through my whole life. When I am led to someone I can trust, to a good person, to a friend, it's all just taken away. And life proves, again, that no one is ever on my side.
It's not enough for me to just take how people treat me. It's not enough to change who I am. Because I will never be worth the time, or effort. I have worked so hard to love who I am, and to just take life as it comes, but who I am isn't who they want me to be. Unfortunatly, I never will be. Because even if you all hate who I am, I am me. I will always be. I just wish I could be good enough for you.
I guess, I would rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not. I would rather be alone than with people who don't understand, or take the time to try to understand, who I am. You can judge me all you want. You can say what you want about me. But know this, I am happy with who I am. I am never going to change for anyone but myself. I would never say what you say about me, about you. And I'll leave the judging to the one who has the right.
If you hate me, so be it. I'm sorry I wasn't who you wanted me to be. But I'm not sorry I'm me.
