Dear Caitlin,
First I want you to know how much I love you, if that’s possible. And second, even though it may sound corny, I want you to know how proud I am of you. How far you have come amazes me. The person you are, and are becoming, is someone I can honestly look up to. When I was younger I never felt that I had a sister. And to be honest I’m not sure I cared. I didn’t know anything about who you were. I didn’t know you, and I will never know who you were. And even though I lost that part of my life I don’t mind it. I know that what I didn’t get then is being made up for now, and in the years to come. In losing a sister I gained a best friend. And not just any best friend, I know I can never lose you. I know that no matter where life takes us I can count on you. We were never meant to have the sisterly relationship that most girls have, and that’s okay…because we have so much more. I know I couldn’t handle this crazy life without you, I could never lose you again. Life doesn’t seem so hard knowing I have you. You’ve taught me some amazing things in my life, and I’ve leaned so much from watching you. Life gets tough, but I thank God I have you, for if I didn’t I would never become the person I want to be. You are my sister. You are my hero. You are my role model. You are my reality check. But most of all, Cait, you are my friend. I wouldn’t give a minute of what we have now to get back the time we missed. Now, as you start a new chapter in your life, I want you to know I am here for you. And I always will be. No matter how many miles apart we are I will be there to pick you up when you’re down. I hope you can prove to me that “true love” does exist, and that it lasts forever. Pete is your match. I see the way he has changed you and your life. I couldn’t be happier for you than I am at this moment. I wish for all of your hopes and dreams to come true. This is the beginning of a new journey for you, and I hope you take chances together, grow together, learn together, laugh together, cry together, dream together and love together. This life passes by too fast, so make every breath worth it. Congratulations on the beginning of the rest of your life.
I love you Cait.
-Maddie
Friday, April 9, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
Vivi la Vita.
Live life. Two words. Simple.
As I take the next step in my life, as I grow up a little more, I find I'm scared. I don't know where I'm going, all I have are my hopes, and my dreams. I've been told I have one foot in my childhood- not wanting to leave, and the other foot in adulthood- wanting to experience the world. I'm afraid of the uncertainty that lies ahead.
On one hand, I'm young and I have my whole life ahead of me. I have time to be a child still. I have time for dreams. But on the other hand life has already gone by so fast. I don't have time to waste. I need to meet the people I need to know, I need to know where I'm going and what I'm doing. I need to know my options. I need to get my head out of my dreams and back into reality. I need to finish school, I need a car and a job. I need realistic paths for my life....but back to the other hand...
I have dreams. I dream of becoming a photo journalist. I dream of seeing the world. I want to show the world to everyone as I see it. I want to share the beauty of the universe. I want to bring peace to someones life, I want to make a difference. I want to change something for the better. I want to swim in the ocean, with the sharks. I want to find a starfish on the beach walking alone at night. I want to be stung by a jelly fish. I want to fly. I want to jump off a cliff into the unknown. I want to ride an elephant. I want to take a picture of the giraffes eating in the blistering sun of midday in African. I want beads from tribes- and to experience the culture. I want to learn of the world by seeing it, by being there. I want to learn about life. I don't want to read about it, watch a movie or a documentary about it. I want to experience it. I want everything the world has to offer. I want to live life!
How is it that I am so afraid of growing up, and yet I feel the need, in my heart, to become part of this world. I cannot just sit back...I cannot watch as the world becomes something more amazing each day. I cannot be like the rest of this town. I cannot be stuck here, I want to live!
My heart has been through so much, but this feeling of jumping headfirst, into an uncertain world, is much different than anything I have ever felt. I am terrified. And yet I feel confident.
So here is to this week; to the begging and the ending of life. Here I end the hopeless dreams of childhood. And here I begin making them reality. Here is to starting over. Here is to life. Here is to living. Live life. Vivi la vita.
As I take the next step in my life, as I grow up a little more, I find I'm scared. I don't know where I'm going, all I have are my hopes, and my dreams. I've been told I have one foot in my childhood- not wanting to leave, and the other foot in adulthood- wanting to experience the world. I'm afraid of the uncertainty that lies ahead.
On one hand, I'm young and I have my whole life ahead of me. I have time to be a child still. I have time for dreams. But on the other hand life has already gone by so fast. I don't have time to waste. I need to meet the people I need to know, I need to know where I'm going and what I'm doing. I need to know my options. I need to get my head out of my dreams and back into reality. I need to finish school, I need a car and a job. I need realistic paths for my life....but back to the other hand...
I have dreams. I dream of becoming a photo journalist. I dream of seeing the world. I want to show the world to everyone as I see it. I want to share the beauty of the universe. I want to bring peace to someones life, I want to make a difference. I want to change something for the better. I want to swim in the ocean, with the sharks. I want to find a starfish on the beach walking alone at night. I want to be stung by a jelly fish. I want to fly. I want to jump off a cliff into the unknown. I want to ride an elephant. I want to take a picture of the giraffes eating in the blistering sun of midday in African. I want beads from tribes- and to experience the culture. I want to learn of the world by seeing it, by being there. I want to learn about life. I don't want to read about it, watch a movie or a documentary about it. I want to experience it. I want everything the world has to offer. I want to live life!
How is it that I am so afraid of growing up, and yet I feel the need, in my heart, to become part of this world. I cannot just sit back...I cannot watch as the world becomes something more amazing each day. I cannot be like the rest of this town. I cannot be stuck here, I want to live!
My heart has been through so much, but this feeling of jumping headfirst, into an uncertain world, is much different than anything I have ever felt. I am terrified. And yet I feel confident.
So here is to this week; to the begging and the ending of life. Here I end the hopeless dreams of childhood. And here I begin making them reality. Here is to starting over. Here is to life. Here is to living. Live life. Vivi la vita.
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