I'm not really sure how to put all my thoughts into words anymore. But here's my first go at it.
I feel completely lost. Life seemed like it was so amazing just a few months ago, but now it's so still. Nothing ever changes. Nothing ever feels quite right. It's supposed to be one of the best years of my life...but it feels like the end of the road. I don't know where to go from here. I want so badly to just escape this place and all the people in it, but I have a feeling that's going to be impossible. I'm so afraid of getting stuck in the town for the rest of my life. I just want more.
Every day is the same. The same people surrounding me. The same POS car. The same me. I don't have hardly any of the confidence I used to make believe I had. I feel so angry at the world. Everyone around me makes me angry. Everything they do.
I just don't know what else to write.
