Vivi la Vita.

Live life. Two words. Simple.


As I take the next step in my life, as I grow up a little more, I find I'm scared. I don't know where I'm going, all I have are my hopes, and my dreams. I've been told I have one foot in my childhood- not wanting to leave, and the other foot in adulthood- wanting to experience the world. I'm afraid of the uncertainty that lies ahead.

On one hand, I'm young and I have my whole life ahead of me. I have time to be a child still. I have time for dreams. But on the other hand life has already gone by so fast. I don't have time to waste. I need to meet the people I need to know, I need to know where I'm going and what I'm doing. I need to know my options. I need to get my head out of my dreams and back into reality. I need to finish school, I need a car and a job. I need realistic paths for my life....but back to the other hand...

I have dreams. I dream of becoming a photo journalist. I dream of seeing the world. I want to show the world to everyone as I see it. I want to share the beauty of the universe. I want to bring peace to someones life, I want to make a difference. I want to change something for the better. I want to swim in the ocean, with the sharks. I want to find a starfish on the beach walking alone at night. I want to be stung by a jelly fish. I want to fly. I want to jump off a cliff into the unknown. I want to ride an elephant. I want to take a picture of the giraffes eating in the blistering sun of midday in African. I want beads from tribes- and to experience the culture. I want to learn of the world by seeing it, by being there. I want to learn about life. I don't want to read about it, watch a movie or a documentary about it. I want to experience it. I want everything the world has to offer. I want to live life!

How is it that I am so afraid of growing up, and yet I feel the need, in my heart, to become part of this world. I cannot just sit back...I cannot watch as the world becomes something more amazing each day. I cannot be like the rest of this town. I cannot be stuck here, I want to live!

My heart has been through so much, but this feeling of jumping headfirst, into an uncertain world, is much different than anything I have ever felt. I am terrified. And yet I feel confident.

So here is to this week; to the begging and the ending of life. Here I end the hopeless dreams of childhood. And here I begin making them reality. Here is to starting over. Here is to life. Here is to living. Live life. Vivi la vita.