Bring on the New Year

I tend to think only of the past. It takes a lot for me to stay in the moment, I work at it daily. In like most things, some days go well and others not so. I like to remember when it was easy, when each day was just a game that I kept winning. I like to remember that confidant girl with the dark eyes, she could do anything. I'd give a lot to play that character again, but I wont.
This year has taught me so much.
-make your own path to happiness
-find the people you can count on before you count your friends
-take chances
-dream crazy dreams and live them
-don't look through your own eyes to see yourself, you wont find what your looking for
-in order to change, you must work every minute of every day
-if you want to change you have to find who you were, who you are and who you wish to be
-surprising someone else is the best way to surprise yourself
-if you don't see your life clearly in front of you, you're looking the wrong way
-it's okay to be upset, it's not okay to let the world know
-time happy is not time wasted, no matter how you feel later
-just because your day wasn't amazing, doesn't make it a bad day
-if you think about what you're going to say, your heart may change your mind about it(negativly or positivly)
-the farther you fall, the higher you get to come back up
-the most simple things can be the hardest to explain
-there is always someone there for you, it may not be who you want it to be, and it wont always be the same person, you may even have to look for them, but there is always someone.


It's hard for me to see all the good in my life, but a list like that puts everything into view. I have trouble believing how far I have come in the last year. It has gone by so fast. Look at where I am. Look at who I am. Even though I struggle with who I am every day, I can't help but love myself.
I hope this coming year brings me everything I've had and more. I want all the heartache and love and happiness and tears. I don't regret one thing I've done in my life. And I don't plan on starting now. Life is too short to wait around for what you want. You have to be active in your life.
This year was thrilling.


"May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some good books, and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art-write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself."